Give it time, dearie.
You must have me confused with Norma.
in your case,you may have hit the nail on the head.....the illusion that we call beauty part, that is.rumor has it you decorate with smoke & mirrors, only.
I don't use smoke and mirrors. I also include a gauzy veil as well.
Well, the "Please don't let me love him" part I have down pat, at least.